To help or not to help

To do or not to do, to help or not to help is the question. I'm the guy who likes to help others but then sometimes people think I'm butting in. I can't help it, when I help, it's good intentions but others see it as nosing around. I have nothing against anybody as I like to help even when I'm treated badly. When ever I get involved in something, I make sure I'll try my level best to help out even if I play a small part. It's a subconscious thing to make sure everything is in tip top shape and therefore I love to help even when I'm not asked to.  Let say I'm not involved in a particular event or situation and I see that my family members, friends or even community is in trouble or facing difficulties, I'm there as a family member and a friend to help out. Helping others  is a selfness service and as mentioned before I love to help but the thing that bugs me the most is after helping out, the people that I help will turn around and say that I'm interfering and a busy body.


It's my nature to help out but jerks like those stated above really pisses me off. My parents, siblings, free loaders (I've explained about them in the previous post), close friends (foster brothers and sisters) always tell me that when you help someone never aspect anything in return. Yes I get it but those people that I've helped and then turn a total 180 degrees and say that I'm a busy body, now that's a kicker in the nuts. 

WHAT IS LIFE

This question has always been lingering in my mind as far back when I was able to speak. What is LIFE, what's the meaning and why do we have to treasure life. You may say that life is just a soul trapped in a body created by god, life only last for a certain time until you day and life has a lot of mysteries . My Life is complicated, so as long as I have my family, my friends, the animals around me, my education, my hobbies, my cars and my commitments, then I have a life. But again this question wanders in the very core of my mind, is that all considered as LIFE. There are many poems, stories, and philosophical and religious books that talks about life. And believe me when I say I'm bored with all these reading materials trying to answer my questions. I'm 21years old and yet I thinking about life. Maybe I'm planning for my future and what not or maybe as I mentioned frequently to the people in my circle, I think a lot. Maybe I'm being paranoid as usual. What ever the reason is, this particular thought will never die off till I have my last breath.

Yes I do understand the statements where it is said that life moments should be remembered and life is precious so take great care of it. I have seen the worse cases of people with various disabilities (me being one of them), how they go through their daily routines, what they can and can't do, the joyful moments and their unforgettable events.  I have observed my family members whereby every moment together as one big unit is priceless. They lives of the many members of The Karuthans is cherished even in bad times. The free loaders in my house, (my siblings' friends and a few of mine that constantly stay in my house up to 11 hours a day) oh how they enjoy their life to the MAX (I don't know), having fun even when doing work in the house. My dog Silver sleeping, eating, swimming and guarding her family and their belongings. Now that's life, a simple yet peaceful life, where she is the "PET" of The Karuthans. Many do say that life or ATHMA starts in the smallest molecule particle  found in the creatures. In Lehman terms, life is in our Protons or even deeper inside. Yeh enough of the religious aspect. I need to know what is life, my experiences and books aren't enough to answer this question and those which follow it.

Every time I think and try to answer this annoying yet demanding questions, my head spins and I find myself deep in thoughts for hours even days. It's always at the back of my head and never will it die off till the day I die. I bet when I'm with God or even reincarnated this thought will be hovering and planted deep in my brains.

WHAT IS LIFE